i realized my bk may be under my table.. that is a consolation.. the only one.. if it is not.. then i die le.. so.. lets juz pray hard tat it is...

went to my uncle's hse ytd... supposedly was to celebrate his bday.. then i forgot.. he is avid buddhist.. and this kind of festival.. got those kind of interesting buddhist talks.. feel cheated when i went there.. i m not one who listens to those.. i dun hate them.. nor do i look down on any religion... i dun mind other pple taking any religion.. but i juz dun feel obliged to haf one... coz i realized.. in any religion, there are great pple.. but there are also scapegoats.. there are also losers walking ard misusing the religion... these kind of pple ought to be killed.. but still there are too many of them le.. so the easier way out wld be me staying as a agnostic pple.. (cheem word provided by the proud services of xunqi).. maybe this wat they call true knowledge.. see through all fronts and faces of the nature... walk past them.. absorbing all but not obsessed wif any... PLS.. dun try to persuade, stress, kai dao, force me into ANY religion... leave me in peace.. go past me wif urs.. i will juz go on will mine kz...

~~~DUN TAKE ME WRONG.. i m not anti BUDDHIST.. nor m i PRO buddhist.. Nnnnn i m not ANTI any religion...

~~~for those who stil feel offended.. tell me.. i will delete this entry... kz? thks... (sorry in advance..)