guilt surrounded me.. engulfed me.. suffocated me...
i m dying... i carn breathe...
i feel like an idiot.. i can sense the heart cracking... breaking.. smashing into pieces...
but i carn lift the load... i m too weak.. mentally... spiritually..
forgive me.. pardon me... i m sorry....
give me time... i will.. trust me.. i will.. i can.. i want...